Spirit Guides or Demons?

How I escaped the New Age to discover the truth.

I walked into the church classroom as a psychic, a medium, and a person who had trivialized religion and especially Christianity. I had explored any and all other spiritual options of modern culture. I listened as a skeptic to the historical evidence which proved the authenticity of the Bible, and the validation that all the things that Jesus had said and done were true. I leaned back in my chair and contemplated all that was shown to me. Did this mean I had been completely wrong about Christianity?

During the seminar by scientist Dr. Don Bierle (who became a Christian after examining the evidence that supports the Bible’s authenticity) I held my friend’s hand and asked for forgiveness of my sins and accepted Jesus Christ as my personal savior. As I walked out of the church, I felt unsettled. What did I just do? Am I really a Christian now? A voice spoke loudly in my head saying, “Nothing happened Brian. You just said a sentence or two. It means nothing. You are not a Christian.” The voice was familiar; it was one of my spirit guides who I had called upon many times to assist me in my psychic readings or whenever I needed guidance. However, this time the voice sounded angry.

I was born in Albany, New York the youngest of three children. My father was Catholic and my mother was Episcopalian. I was raised Catholic and attended church almost every Sunday. When I was ten my father decided that we were not going to church anymore. He said the church was getting too modern. Conducting folk masses and having people on the pulpit that were not ordained was too much for him. I believe the real reason was that my father had lost his faith or he never had a very strong one. I had no objections to leaving the church. It had no meaning for me anyway, it was all very boring and pointless to me.

I left home when I was eighteen and joined the Air Force. I attended church on occasion but not that often. I would only go at out a sense of guilt not out of a desire to know God.
Like many people in my position who felt that Christianity was not the answer to life’s questions, I began to explore other beliefs and religions. I ventured or perhaps waded into Buddhism, Hinduism, and Transcendental Meditation. I eventually embraced the New Age.

My friend Bill was attending a year long course that he said was helping him to become aware of himself and his identity in the universe. He told me that it was giving him the peace that he had always sought. In the same course you could also learn how to perform psychic readings. I wasn’t interested in the psychic aspect, but I was looking for meaning in my life and perhaps this would help. I attended the course and at the end of it I was able to perform psychic readings and was quite good at it.

The talent I had for performing readings was not of my own. Anyone who chose to take this course could learn to perform psychic readings. Through this yearlong course students learned how to form a connection with several spirit guides by performing a certain type of meditation. It was the spirit guides that gave you the information you needed while you were in this meditation. While in this state you could perform psychic readings for anyone who asked.

We learned that when performing a reading we had to be aware not to influence or inject our own opinions. We must allow the spirits to speak through us so that the person receiving the reading would get the most accurate information that the spirits had to give. We were learning a code of ethics. To do this properly and effectively I had to remove my will, to be ethical. It bears repeating, in order to perform a good reading I must learn to remove my will. The thought seems scary to me now.

I didn’t know it at the time but I was allowing myself to become possessed. The word “possessed” has a different meaning today. The word is usually used when describing a person who is acting weird or strange. When I use the word I mean it to be that I was becoming a willing, accepting possession by my spirit guides. I lost a great deal of my own will. Although at the time I would have described the feeling as being empowered. In reality, I was an ignorant pawn.

Over the next year, I performed many readings and often people would be amazed at how accurate they were or how much they enjoyed them. Some of my friends or clients were so impressed that they didn’t want to make a decision without consulting me first. It was a great feeling. I felt so connected and powerful. I knew that the power had to be coming from God. Simply because it was real, it was good, and therefore it must be God.

Being on top of the world spiritually you would guess that my life was going great, but nothing could have been further from the truth. My marriage was unraveling, my finances were in a mess and I didn’t know where I was heading. It seems interesting to me now that my spirit guides never told me that I was going to lose my house and my car to bankruptcy and that my wife would leave me.

My whole world had crashed and I didn’t know where to go. A business associate who was a born again Christian asked me if I would be willing to go back to church. I was so low I could not refuse her offer. Besides, she had always been gracious to me even though she disagreed with me about my spirituality. She maintained a close friendship with me throughout all of my ups and downs.

For the first time I had a positive experience at church. It was a modern place with contemporary music and a positive message and one that I could relate to. While I was there I was informed about Don Bierle’s seminar in which evidence would be presented that proved that the story of Jesus Christ was true.

I was skeptical, but the evidence was overwhelming. For example, I did not know that the number of New Testament manuscripts that are available for study today dwarfs all other ancient works. There are only 10 manuscripts ever of found of Caesar’s War Commentaries, seven for Plato’s Tetralogies and only twenty for Livy’s History of Rome.
There are more than 5,300 known manuscripts of the New Testament in the original Greek language and over 24,000 hand written copies when you include other language versions.1 The evidence of the authenticity of the Bible kept on mounting. Each factual example chipped away at my aversion to Christianity and the argument that the story of Jesus Christ had been embellished or falsified. By the end I had no choice but to accept that the story of Jesus was both factual and credible. I had no idea that my spirit guides were going to declare war against me for that realization.

Over the next few days I engaged in more sinful behavior then I have ever done in such a sort period of time. Binge drinking, drugs and sexual impropriety. I missed several days of work and didn’t seem to care. I lay on the couch one morning nursing a hangover when a thought crossed my mind, why was I doing this? Why at this time am I partying like there is no tomorrow? If I am now a Christian, isn’t this all wrong?

Like a dark veil being lifted from my eyes the answer came clearly. In Satan’s attempt to keep me where I was he had revealed his true identity. My spirit guides were not of God and they were threatened by and fearful of my choice to move towards Christ. They never protested when I explored other forms of spirituality. Why was Jesus different? The answer was plain. My spirit guides were not angels or helpers they were demonic.
I felt a wave of fear and remorse. I dropped to my knees in tears and prayed asking for God’s forgiveness and dedicated my life to serving only Him. I had been wrong my entire life. Jesus Christ was the Lord and the only truth about God.

Seven years later the spiritual attacks still continue but they never deter me. I know who they are and I am familiar with their tricks. When they attack me it must mean that I am about to do something good for God’s Kingdom. I have no fear because I’m am blessed by the Holy Spirit and know the truth. It also helps to have my fellow Christians supporting me in prayer.

If you are involved in any practice of witchcraft, paganism or the occult, you are playing with fire and the fire will eventually consume you. Many Wiccan’s tell me that they are only using witchcraft for good. They say that there is good witchcraft and bad witchcraft. This is analogous to saying that there are good drug dealers and bad drug dealers. What they don’t understand is that the source is the same. Satan’s trick is to empower you a little to make sure you never seek the truth of Jesus Christ or seek God for answers to life’s questions. It feels good for a while but it doesn’t last. The demons will use you up and then spit you out leaving an empty shell.